It was
December 2007 when I got the call. Mom, my sisters and I explored all holistic
possibilities to save my sister. She was 34 years old when throat cancer
silenced her life, leaving her starved, and a skeletal semblance of who she was.
I lost my dog Carter, a Great Dane a month before. I watched helplessly as he
slowly hemorrhaged on my floor after making frantic calls to friends to help me
take him to an animal hospital. An accidental cut on his foot revealed a
clotting disorder. I wrapped his body in the quilt my Aunt and God Mother
Ramona gave me. She died a few years earlier from a botched medical procedure.
Her warmth and tender touch was all we had as kids, all that connected us to
humanity. It’s times like this that raise the question of why bad things happen
to good people. Growing up, I’d stomp my feet in a fit crying, “Not fair! It’s
not fair.”
Pain comes
often, like an unwelcomed visitor. Bringing a variety of excruciating flavors in
circumstances that make us question life. Question God. I’ve read many books
and articles on the subject that intellectually addresses the question of
suffering but never really silenced that why.
Until I read
something that bought it home this week. Zechariah 13:9. And I will bring them
through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them
as gold is tried. Here’s the answer to why we suffer - the mystery of glorification.
A work God does in his kids to transform us into His image. A painful purifying process, where life breaks us down through hardships and removes impurities
and weaknesses. God compares us to
silver and gold, it’s how precious we are to Him. But like those metals, we’re
full of it. Sin is the waste mineral that can only be removed by fire. God, the
Almighty Refiner. A Refiner who patiently hovers by the fire watching our
sufferings. We’re never alone because He never leaves our side. Won’t risk
his treasure alone in the flames. If you ask the Refiner how he knows when the
dross is gone, he answers. When I can see my reflection.
We have a
promise. He will bring us through the fire. And in the process, God says
"Behold, I am making all things new."
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